Anvil Crawler

There is a storm brewing inside my head, and there is no place where I can hide. The serenity I found in my solitude, the comfort I found in my thoughts is no more there.  The inability to hold a thought and reach a destination, the plethora of emotions all experienced in a single moment. Seconds feel like hours and minutes like destiny, the voices are getting louder, and fiercer. The anguish is changing to fear, all my love is now brimming with animosity.  

Finding solutions use to be my thing, planning use to be my forte, everything has changed with the blink of an eye, the value you once had for yourself is no longer there. It feels like the “Watch” has stopped but feels like time is still running out.   

The answers are buried deep within the darkness of my thoughts…

Intukuthelo

I think one of the keys to success is learning the art to disengage when things aren’t going your way. Sometimes just keeping up with things gets a little tough, the flow of life isn’t what you expect it to be and nor will people adjust to your requirements. I think taking a break, slowing down things helps put things in perspective. As humans we usually fail to prioritize or what we think is a priority usually isn’t. In which case being flexible plays a key role in getting things done. Disengaging doesn’t always mean you’re sad or angry, but maybe you just need some time to recharge


We live in a country where questioning norms could mean losing your life. Where you live in constant fear, and where fear is a commonly felt emotion. There will be times when you feel cornered, personally and professionally, sometime you will fight sometimes you will run away, it’s important to choose your battles. There are times where even something as small as lack of sleep and steer outcomes in a different direction but then again in such situations you find the true nature of a person.

In the words of Rumi:

When you see the face of anger
look behind it
and you will see the face of pride.
Bring anger and pride
under your feet, turn them into a ladder
and climb higher.
There is no peace until you become
their master.
Let go of anger, it may taste sweet
but it kills.
Don't become its victim.
You need humility to climb to freedom.

Pursuit of Happiness

There comes a time in everyone’s life when they realize the absolute truth about things. As life goes by, there is this is unimaginable clutter that eats us up from inside. There comes a time when you realize the truth about people and you futures with them no matter how hard you try, the outcome it’s opposite to what you desired. There are times when you hope that things will be all right and some happiness comes your way. No matter what you do, how much you pray, how much faith you have things will never change. Sometimes even good news does not change much, and the loss of someone makes life excruciating and difficult, will definitely miss you.

While I can’t claim to be the happiest person in the world I wish I could), I did learn something about it. So here I’d like to share a few ways to find happiness. Firstly you need to stop comparing yourself with others, I’ve done that a lot and it’s really disturbing because each and every time I’ve turned out to be the better one. Expectations are a true killer, the more you expect the more you’re going to get hurt. It’s important to count your blessings, don’t run after things, and be happy with what you have. Believe in your dreams; never give them up for anything. Giving is an essential key to happiness. While we often think that we will be happier when we receive, the truth is we are happier when we give. This is also one of the most difficult things to apply. Listen more than you speak and yes I know I of all people need to work on that, be spiritual religion will come naturally to you, and last but not least learn to forgive other and more importantly forgive yourself.

All that I’ve said may sound very bookish and unrealistic, but then if you’re trying to find out why your unhappy or just pretending to be happy include the above mentioned ingredients and see the change. There is so much to do and so little time, don’t make that an excuse to do nothing. Love will come, when you’re ready for it, happiness is just a state of mind that is within your reach.

When I was in grade school, they told me to write down what I wanted to be when I grew up.
I wrote down happy.
They told me I didn't understand the assignment,
I told them they didn't understand life