Devachan

Some days are better than others, yesterday was pathetic. It’s easy when the trigger is someone else, you can play the blame game, but when the problem is internal it’s hard to ignore, for someone who meticulously plans out his day, week and till the end of times, such a situation just magnifies the OCD compulsions, which sends you reeling down a circular path of destruction.  I don’t really write self help blogs, and this one isn’t the run-of-the-mill self help blog, but I use the following points to judge how far I’ve progressed on the path of destruction.  

(This blog is inspired by an article by Rachel Gillet http://www.entrepreneur.com/article/247295)

1. Time Management :  I think I have this down apart from the crippling feeling of  not being able to do things.
2. Empathy: I can pretend, but im not sure if I will ever be able to do it genuinely.
3. Mastering your sleep: 8 hours enough said
4. Positive Self Talk: I hate it but I try
5. Consistency: where there is OCD, there is consistency
6. Asking for help: I will eventually ask after all is lost
7. Knowing when to shut up and actually doing it: this is something I need to learn
8. Listening : what did you say ?
9. Minding your own business: helps to filter the most important things in life. I bet everyone has their own set of problems, if you don’t, get in touch with me
10. Mastering your thoughts: one step at a time. 

Life is never as simple as listing ideas as pointers,  and I quote Limp Bizkit here “ life’s a lesson, you learn it when your through.”

The Psychology of Stupid

Relationships are volatile if they aren’t you will probably get bored. I’ve seen couples that fight a great deal, but are still together and makes you think why this stupidity. But the rush of the drama sometimes is overwhelming. Nevertheless when the end does come, people find it hard to accept.  Why am I still so upset? They wonder, almost punishing themselves. Why does the sound of their name still make my pulse quicken? Why would we still take them back in a second? They feel pitiful and hopeless.

A popular research at Berkley shows that your brain in love is the same as your brain wired for a reward. Therefore after the breakup there is no reward in this case I believe is the interaction with an ex. And when you don’t get this drug we call “love” you tend to experience some painful withdrawal. The extent will, however depend on certain factors suggested by Elly Prior, The length of the relationship, how recently you split up, how “intense” or even “obsessive” the relationship was, how important it was to you and how it ended.

The age of technology doesn’t make it easier, you’re always connected on whatsapp, and you read a status directed at you or maybe someone likes a picture of a trip you almost forgot about. I’d suggest Zuckerberg to create an algorithm to cater to breakups. Be prepared for the unusual attacks, you will never know when they will come, maybe a character in a book shares the name as their sibling, you wearing the shirt they gave you and you realize that half way through lunch.  Boom: Sadness Arrives or psychosis in my case.

The first step however, is not to be stupid, one of the harsh realities of life is that you may have to become selfish to care about your family and loved ones, end of the day nothing wrong with that. Also the sooner you accept money isn’t everything, life tends to balance out (even if it’s some land on your name). Confining yourself indoors only makes things worse, time to have some fun. One thing that has helped me personally is meditation and doesn’t have to be the conventional monk style but find a method that’s works, collect your thoughts and understand what is important. Love however, is just a chemical imbalance that makes you do stupid things. There is a pill for everything

Biocenosis

We usually tend to look for big signs; we expect the mystery of life to be communicated in grandeur. And it’s because of this expectation we miss out the subtle signs which describe the magnificence yet simplicity of the gifts life has to offer.


1) Timing: the seasons teach us that there is a time for everything, what goes around, comes around, it teaches us patients. The good things in life come from self discovery, meditation and contemplation with time and not like instant coffee.

2) Humility: the trees shed their leaves every autumn only to gain their supremacy back in spring, every fall has a rise, there is nothing that you cannot come back from, staying humble to your roots may not get you to the top quickly but it will when the time is right.

3) There is peace in chaos: reconnect with nature through your five senses and you will realize its contradictions it's simple and complicated, orderly and messy, quiet and busy. And once you can associate with this, you harness an internal force that helps you achieve peace in the midst of chaos. This happens when you realize your world is bigger than just your problems.

Watching the darkness of the night transform into light injects a burst of hope to get up every morning. We tend to limit our lives with fear, anger, ill health basically self imposed barriers. The leaf transforms the invisible energy of the sun to nourish itself; you can use this invisible energy to turn around your life as well.



 

Awakening

Whores don't live in company of poor men, citizens never support a weak company and birds don't build nests on a tree that doesn't bear fruits.

What do you do when your belief system is shattered? Is it possible to get back into the game and be the same? I’ve seen so many people who sacrifice their beliefs for a brief moment of happiness. When what is happiness in reality a small interval between two sorrows. Giving up your belief system may not be the worst possible thing you do, not having set of principles to adhere to is worse. All everyone is worried about is finding the right person, when the right person has probably screwed you and moved on... I’m kidding, there is more to life than just being in relationships, and as you grow you begin to cherish solitude.

As the days go by I see my youth being replaced by the harsh realities of life, certain things you will never get no matter how hard you try, people will never change no matter what happens, and every good thing comes to an end eventually. Ever thought about how we tend to believe in conflicting thoughts like free will and destiny to our convenience. Destiny is only applicable when you follow the “Word”... when you decide to screw life on your own that’s free will… some answers to life are really simple, some signs are right in front of us and we decide to ignore them. Why do we impose on our self this dependency which restricts us? I know something is wrong when I’m easily satisfied, I wish others felt that way to. For all those who say it’s the little things in life that matter, I disagree… what matters is in abundance for everyone; you just need to find it… happiness is a relative term… you define parameters

Enough of my rambling… if what I say has gotten you thinking just a little, you may just have a chance to be saved (saved from what you ask??!!! … we’ll leave that for another post). Think if you never raise your eyes you will think that you are the highest point. And being powerful is like being a lady. If you have to tell people you are, you aren't.

Mistakes…

There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting.- Buddha

There are times when life seems really unfair, and I’ve always said that it helps to look at people who are less privileged than you, but then again easier said than done right. We spend so much time in trying to fix things in our lives that we fail to see the beauty right in front of our eyes. It may be too late now, but I will try undoubtedly.
If things were as simple as just apologizing the world would definitely be a better place, but then again words aren’t that powerful or then again you may just not know how to say it. I always believe that its actions that speak louder than words, but that’s something that many people fail to realize, obviously it’s harder to achieve.

We’re all descend upon the earth for a particular purpose, and finding the purpose is not an easy task, even tougher is achieving a higher purpose in life. God speaks to us in ways we can never imagine, there is a sign at every corner but we’ve stopped paying attention. We all have a destiny to fulfill but I guess we fear it too much. When you fail to identify your blessings they become curses. We’ve become like sheep in a flock waiting for someone to lead the way when life’s purpose depends on these important choices. Some mistakes are too big to forgive; some things said cannot be taken back. We need to live with the choices we made. Regrets are a powerful tool that needs to liberate and unlock the soul from its bondage. I wish I could be alone, because an inadequate prescience is much worse than solitude itself.

There comes a time when your body has given up on you in the prime of your youth, you may long the touch of a loved one, but you may never get it; coming back from something like that takes courage. Certain things in life you are capable of, what you can’t do, better you leave untouched.

Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time. Double standards hurt an inflated ego; it’s all the pain and drama in my life that keeps me from going numb. But how long will I survive? It’s in your hands to put me out of my misery.