Divine Comedy

Oh come on, you know me better than that. That title is just really catchy, so I had to use something that will catch your attention. It’s just my way of making you want to click the link…

In the midst of massive instability I was told that a content life was a life that has peace in it. I obviously like most times disagree with that notion; I think peace is subjective to a person’s needs, perception and ambitions. I’ve reviewed the literature on positive psychology, some metaphysics and a lot of self help but the fact remains when your dealt a sorry hand you need to find a way to deal with it.

Every day I learn something new, something new about the world, something new about people and something new about myself. Obviously I was just trying to sound philosophical, learning stuff doesn’t change your destiny. Doing stuff changes life. Yes I maybe negative, highly unstable, but I’m trying 

Life as we know it..

“The serpent, the king, the tiger, the stinging wasp, the small child, the dog owned by other people, and the fool: these seven ought not to be awakened from sleep.”

Life is nothing but a series of tests that well… we hope to pass. Problem is not all of us are great at giving tests. I have all to be thankful for, but human nature at times does prevail. Sitting in a room devoid of electricity for over 16 hours is a test in itself. Puking out your intestines with no one to pass u a wipe; When you have to clean up after yourself not having the energy, the blood rushing out of your brain when you sit up, the fear of God when you see the huge needles being inserted in the hips of a patient extracting bone marrow with no one by his side.

Everyone has problems, not everyone has the capability to solve them. Everyone has dreams and not everyone has the ability to achieve them. But life goes on, for some people alone. Certain decisions you make, will eventually hurt you. But its faith that can fuel miracles, you just need to want it bad enough. It may seem that God is unfair, but have hope that someone perfect will walk into your life one day. And Hope they will stay. I hope that the people with problems mentioned above get one thing I believe of utmost importance, mental peace. That when the person who is puking during chemo has someone to rub his back and hand a wipe, someone to hold him while the needles are inserted. I wish the pain ends soon.

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Forgive, O Lord, my little jokes on Thee,
And I'll forgive Thy great big one on me.
~Robert Frost, "Cluster of Faith," 1962

We are brought into this world cold, weak, and helpless. Then it gets worse. Everyone in this world has a philosophy of their own; everyone lives a life which they play varying roles; some planned some out of compulsion. People change quickly; it takes a matter of months sometimes even moments of a new experience to forget all that you lived for. Some things I’ve changed in the recent past, I’ve learnt to fight for what I want, I’ve learnt to keep the basics of morality intact (successful or not is a different story) and I’ve decided that I will not take shit from anyone anymore.

Whether religious or not we always believe that there is this predefined destiny that we all are subjected to. Yet we indulge in intrusive planning hoping to achieve all the goals we set our mind out to. We are such control freaks by nature that we want everything to go the way just planned. Personally speaking if things went the way I planned, life would definitely be more stable but I would have never been the man I am today. The little things in life matter to me, the unpredictability the feelings of meeting someone new, the heartbreaks of not being able to be with someone the bitter sweet feeling of finding success in failure.

As usual I have an opinion about everything and I love judging and being judged, therefore giving advice comes naturally. For those who think that experimenting is fun, well think about it again the only experimenting you will do is with the color of your wedding dress of your arrange marriage. Be normal, and the crowd will accept you. Be deranged, and they will make you their leader. For whatever reason you feel superior you will lose once you’re out in the real world. For the few others dependent financially on someone you will always be this way for the simple reason its been drilled into your DNA to be a mere slave. And lastly for the immaculate people in my life, be there always.

Life as we Know IT….

So here we go again, same story, same result, only difference conditions are worse today. Human relationships are like life itself, they're born, they grow, they're subjected to a lot of hardships and plagues, stronger ones survive and weaker ones perish. But unlike life you’re greatly dependent on yourself, but in a relationship one is severely handicapped and dependent on the other for support. Over a period of time dependency increases on the other hand all life forms come to an end so do relationships.

I always believed that people can change and it’s important to give them the chance to do so. But as usual I’ve been proved wrong and bigots will never change their way of thinking. They will screw you over and then not even have the courtesy to apologize. But again I have no one to blame but myself because I knew the end. Some people enjoy playing with people’s life, ruining families on the basis of false promises. One 2 hour conversation summarized in one message, all the lies all the screw ups. And the argument they present is “living in sin”. There is no difference between you and the others, they left me struggling the same way, and so did you. The way I treated you no one will, and you forever shall long for my immaculate touch. No can make you feel the way I did. I am Roydon D’mello.

At the end of it all, one must realize that for people things like money and popularity mean everything. A prayer at one time would mean the world and the next time the same prayers bring up hoax results. Did God cheat us then? No, your existence was regretted by Him.

You think you are alive
because you breathe air?
Shame on you,
that you are alive in such a limited way.
Don't be without Love,
so you won't feel dead.
Die in Love
and stay alive forever.

As life progresses you learn a lot from people. Their mistakes will one day become your strength; the gap they leave in your life is insignificant. Having regrets has made me only stronger. Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.