Monday, September 21, 2009

Anger

I’d like to believe that anger is the sweetest part of us. Aristotle defines anger as a desire accompanied by pain, for a conspicuous revenge for a conspicuous slight at the hands of men who have no call to slight oneself or one's friends...It must always be attended by a certain pleasure--that which arises from the expectation of revenge. In my opinion however revenge and anger should be dealt with separately but hey, I’m no Aristotle. Just because I enjoy philosophy doesn’t mean I’m psycho and I love getting angry for a valid reason.

Some say we can't control our emotions, but we "choose" our emotions from our "emotional toolbox." If anger is in our heart already, events will bring it out. If we have let God give us peace, our reaction to events will reflect this: we may respond to offenses or accidents with humour, kindness and patience, because that is what is in our heart. But if we still have anger in our heart, what do we do in the meantime? Once the anger wells up and starts to spill out, we have an ongoing decision: let it out or refuse to participate. This is not a matter of holding it in. It is a matter of starving it, refusing to feed it. Anger always dissipates eventually, so we can just let it happen sooner by not holding on to it and refusing to enjoy it. People enjoy their anger. Think about it; you will find it is true. Even though we may feel terrible later, we enjoy the power of anger while we are giving ourselves to it. We get an adrenaline rush and forget all the bad things about ourselves.

I’m constantly told that I need to control my temper; I somehow find ways to justify but have to admit that I do blow my top. I guess it’s not my anger than people have issues with but the arrogance with which I carry myself after making the biggest blunders known to man.

When you see the face of anger
look behind it
and you will see the face of pride.
Bring anger and pride
under your feet, turn them into a ladder
and climb higher.
There is no peace until you become
their master.
Let go of anger, it may taste sweet
but it kills.
Don’t become its victim
you need humility to climb to freedom.

My heartfelt apology to the soul I’ve heart the most with my anger, but it’s a journey I make from the path of the wicked towards the light of the righteous. The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the iniquities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he, who in the name of charity and good will shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee. (A quote from the 1994 movie pulp fiction)

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